Caution: Whining Ahead
What priority do I expect to be in a relationship? certainly not #1. That never happens. I’m never more important than the dude’s work. Work always comes first. Family should come second, but usually it doesn’t, depending on how messed up a dude’s family is. With Victor, family is way up there (parents and the like). His kid is up there, probably before parents, so I’m down to #4. Wait, he has a lot of friends that he likes to hang out with. I don’t expect to be more important than friends; I’m always bitching about people who don’t put bros before ho’s, so why should i expect any different treatment? Then there are hobbies. I’d like to be at least equals with hobbies, but somehow I never am. With Victor, I’m definitely below hobbies (i.e., the Theramin he’s building) and keep going. I’m less of a priority than sleeping; Victor is always tired and has to get his sleep. Then there’s booze. Rather than call me after work to “unwind,” he’d rather just bust out a bottle of whiskey.
So there you have it. I’m less important than 1. work 2. kids 3. parents & siblings 4. friends 5. hobbies 6. sleeping 7. booze. I’m #8. Wait, have I forgotten anything? I guess at least I’m in the top 10–that’s more than I can say for where I stood in Saki’s world! I’m used to being ignored and taken for granted, and in fact I HATE it when i get stuck with a clingy whiny leech like some exes. However, there has to be some kind of middle ground, right? Maybe not. This is probably nature’s way of telling me I’m going to die alone and I should just deal with it. Truthfully, I’d rather be single for the rest of my life than have to deal with these extremes. Seriously.